whimsicalraven

This week I am going to try my hardest to not give up. It will be hard to work out with a leg I can barely use but I will try.
Everything else is good really. I have met some new people and one has the potential of being a long term partner.

Things are good!

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!

I know I didnt have a weight loss this week but I am still in the best mood I have ever been in. My soul feels rejuvenated and Im loving it! This week is going to be a great week for all of us. I just need to stick to my diet plans and exercise, exercise, exercise!

I have finally come to the realization that I dont have to be perfect in this world…all I can do is be me and hope that others appreciate that. My life is changing so much and I have God to thank for that. I have been on the wrong path for so long that I didnt think I would be back on this path of loving myself or others. But here I am!!! I am ready to make a difference in my life and in the lives of others!

 Hope you all have the best week ever and remember….its always up to you!! No matter what happens…we are in control of our own destiny!

I just wanted to post something this week and this is what I got…

I feel great!! Mentally I feel as if I am headed down the right path. I am better able to control what I eat and how I feel. It truly is amazing what you can do when you just stick with it and believe in yourself. I am truely thankful for each and everyone of you that read my blogs and leave comments and for anyone that is giving me support. I hope you have all had a great week too!

The weekend started off pretty good. I made plans with friends and with another that I really like. Turns out things werent supposed to go that way after all.

I wish I could truly understand all that happens in the male brain. I have been hanging with a certain individual and we were really getting along and I know that he liked me and he knew I liked him. Well I invited him over for dinner tonight and he was all for it yesterday. I was all excited…FYI I never cook even for myself…:)  So that has to show for something right??

Today I got the phone call and he said that he doesnt think it will work between us because of my sisters boyfriend. Now that I dont understand…what does that have to do with anything??

Well I guess that not all things you want are really what you need. I will just keep my head up and not let this bring me down. This is going to be a fantastic week…just some added inspiration..:)

 Our Deepest Fear

by Marianne Williamson 

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

Reading this makes me just light up! I hope that everyone has a wonderful day and weekend!

I havent smoked in 2 days!!! Thanks for all the support! Its amazing when you can breathe again!

I am so proud of myself. I have offically not had a cig for almost a day! You all know that I had a setback this weekend and I know they happen. Last night I received a call from my sisters boyfriend and he was yelling and then hung up the phone. I called back and he wouldnt answer. I kept calling and nothing but him acting so childish so I just yelled back that he needs to grow up. Well I was afraid last night that he might do something to my dog like kick him out of their house since they watch him at night time. I was so “tempted” to buy a pack of cigs but I didnt. I did cry like a baby but I did it and thats what matters the most. I feel so alive this morning like I am ready for anything.

I will be working out this morning when I go see my mom too. I am actually looking forward to it.

 Take Care

I knew we would have snow the first week of November. I am excited for winter but there goes alot of the outside options for exercise. I cant wait to get to my moms house this week to use her treadmill though! I just want to pop in a movie and walk for as long as I can. Things are going good this morning. I havent been having urges to smoke at all this morning. I am so proud of myself.

Well have a great day everyone!!

TTYL

I realize that I let alot of you down this weekend. Im sorry to the Fitness Fanatics that I didnt weigh in or submit any points for this last week.

I know that I cant close my eyes and be healthier. I know it takes time since it took me some time to get the way I am right now…:)
I posted a blog about quitting smoking and let me tell you something…This is harder than losing weight and exercising. I cant believe how silly I was behaving this weekend when it was supposed to be a fun day with my sister turning 24 on Halloween. Not really how it turned out…I went into a total meltdown because I wanted that cigarette. I hate to say this but I did falter and bought a pack of cigs and then felt so disgusted with myself for doing it. I know that this week is a new week and I am going to get this all under control. With some prayer things will clear up for me…thanks for all the support I received last week…

Since my journey of losing weight started last week I have still kept one bad habit that really is worse than eating the wrong stuff and not exercising. I have still been smoking cigarettes. I have been a smoker for almost 9 yrs and I am finally ready to stop this bad habit so my life can go on. Its weird because I know that smoking is terrible and I cant believe that I know what cigarettes contain yet I still puff away. Well not anymore. I am stronger than that. I have something to live for and I need to focus on that.

 So heres to those cigarettes….

You will no longer control my every thought.
You will no longer keep wasting my money.
You will no longer make my clothes and hair and breath smell like an ashtray.
You will not kill me….

I know this will be a rough road ahead but I am so ready. I will need help from anyone that has gone through this or just anyone to offer support. It will all be greatly appreciated.

Well did my weigh in and I have lost two pounds. I think this is a great start to a long journey and I am so excited. I hope that everyone had great news for all the weigh ins out there. If things didnt go you way just remember that all will work out…and you just have to say to yourself…Im going to do this one day at a time.